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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|12:23 am] |
I think I have my ass in gear. I'm doing well restricting and not craving. I went grocery shopping today and had self-control! 100%
I can't believe I gained that much weight back! What is my probelm lately. 4 months from hell!
I might be moving soon. I'm scared to death of the idea, but I'm in need of change BIG TIME. I can't afford to live anywhere unless I go to school full-time and live in a dorm. I'm not cut out for dorm life. Maybe I can go to school with cantcry. She could use a roomie and I've missed her lots.
We shall see. |
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[Jul. 27th, 2005|10:08 pm] |
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SO SO SO SO SO FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!
I can't stop eating. I ned someone to tape my mouth shut or babysit me to make sure I don't eat.
I'm a pig. |
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[Jul. 21st, 2005|09:53 pm] |
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I hate being fat. I restricted so well the past 5 days then fucked it all up yesterday and today. Yesterday was the worst. I binged on my "safer foods" for christsake! By "safer" I don't mean celery, I mean the few foods I allow myself that are within my "allowed calories" whiel restricting. I plateaued months ago and got so discouraged that I just gained. My need for surgery didn't help. It was my throat so everyone brought me milkshakes and stuff, plus I was dehydrated and "wasn't getting enough nutrition" is what the doc said who sent to the hospital thinking it was because I was in too much pain to eat. Asshole. They filled me with calories for no fucking reason. I was fine and actually "sorta" eating. THEN, my birthday and all of the shit that comes with that.
I'm just so frustrated. I'm a pig. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2005|10:08 pm] |
Eating Disorder Support Join!!
 rednpurple
Sells bracelets. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2005|03:08 pm] |
Tome for a new LJ. I wanted to start fresh without annoying people that I know from real life reading. No one really knows about my ED.
An intro to start and then this will be friends-only probably and you can comment to be added. The mrore, the merrier.
My BMI is disgustingly high making me ED-NOS, but basically Anorexic. I'm 22, 5'4" and fucking fat. I had a great week of restricting, lost approx 2.5 pounds. Not very much, but something, but then screwed it all up and ate. I have no control and just get fatter and fatter. I suck. Well, I hope you'll want to add me, cause the more support and others I can relate to, the better. I'm a comment freak. i love to comment!
Maybe I'll add more to this entry. Just wanted to get this new journal started!
MUAH!
Join the group I co-own. My friend sells Eating Disorder Support bracelets. She better send me another one as a freebie for doing this! LOL |
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